I swear of thin air and nowhere 7/22/2008
I feel like Im breathing in thin air
The words I speak are lost before they reach your ears
And maybe its a good thing that you dont know what Im thinking
What am I thinking? Im thinking that I love you
I love you more than life; I love you more than these breaths
The ones I breathe in through my nose and the ones that escape out my mouth
I love you more than the goose bumps you give me and the smiles you put on my face
These words I can say thirty or fifty times a day but I feel they are lost
Before they reach your ears in my thin air I chase them and put them on paper
I type hoping that maybe it means more now that you can save it to a flash drive
Or put it on a CD, or maybe print it out and keep it on your bedside table
Does this mean more than saying the words I love you? Because I swear I do
Ill wish upon every first star I see hoping that you understand where Im coming from
Me, that girl, she re reads your texts, the sweet ones, over and over
She keeps them and manually deletes the others
She reads them when shes having a bad day
When she feels no one in the world loves her, they make her happy, shell remember
She smiles to herself and ignores the looks she gets
This is what shes thinking, this is what shes thinking, and this is what shes thinking
Can you read my mind?
Shes thinking of a place she wants to go maybe somewhere where she can write
Or paint
somewhere she can cry out all her tears, someplace safe
Shes tired of all the smug street looks thats so prominent
Shell fix her gaze downward; shell watch her shoelaces bounce as she walks to nowhere
She doesnt care what other people think unless it's the truth then she starts to sweat it...
Every drop counts as she listens to the steady beat of her ipod
And the steady drum of her heart as she runs....sometimes she wants to run...
She wants to run to Channelside and catch a ride to somewhere
Shell make friends with the water and play with the sky shell bounce on the clouds
Take a dip in the stars and then shell meet you and youll take her somewhere
You with your cerulean sun eyes will resurrect her soul
Making her toes curl in a surreal fit of complete un-drugged induced pleasure
And at night you will lay in silence while she traces your tattoo with her finger tips
Shell fight the thin air and say it loud enough for you to hear, that she loves you
Because she swears she does, I swear I do.













